WAIT! HALT THE OPTIMISM!

I can pretty much say today was the fucking worst day of poker i've had in 2 months. Genuinely exhausted right now from what has been a ridiculously stressful rollercoaster. Thing started really well. I logged on super positive and ready to pwn the weekend donks. Within about 500 hands i was +3 buy ins and loving life. Usually i would stop here and call it a day but in my new analytical approach to poker i decided this was an extremely -ev move, given the woeful standard of players around me. So i battled on. Then the down fall began.

hand 1: http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436752 donk playing 80/20, massive station postflop and often trying to put moves on people. My turn play is obv questionable but it seemed like he usually had something like 89, a fd, or smaller pocket pairs, (44,55,66 etc). Even 99,TT etc are a big part of his range.

So i tried to brush this hand aside and be rational. "He obviously played the hand like a complete knob, but players like him are why this game is profitable etc etc". Anywho, i decided that i would try get back to +50 (as i had dropped to like +38).

And so the fun continued.......

hand 2: Decided to have a brief look at nl50. There's obv no way i can get away from this. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436767

hand 3: yes obv by this stage im tilting. This hand is bad but fml i had no idea what he could have apart from a busted fd, middle pocket pairs or a J. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436774

hand 3: OK THIS IS GOING TO GET UGLY! http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436800

hand 4: smaller one but i love when villains tarp me: http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436803

hand 5: At this point there's a new hole in my plasterboard door. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436804

hand 6: THE OLD FAVOURITE!

The epic climax. I had actually managed to win a bit of money back. Having gone from +60, to -60 (quickfire 6 buy in swings ftw) within a short amount of time i manage to grind back to being within $1 of even. I tell myself "ok nick lets just get to even and call it a day. It was a shit day but you showed good character and am pretty much even". I start closing tables and, of course, am greeted by some old friends of mine:

http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436662

I literally knew obv what he had when he calls my 5th bet. Time stands still for a moment and i think to myself "This is it. The reward for not tilting and playing solid. What comes around really does go around in poker". I cover my eyes with my hands for the flop. I start to peak through a crack in my fingers for the turn. Thing are looking good. Surely being 95% to win ill make it? No, not this fucking session. Naturally the river;

K

I just sit at my computer fucking drained and so far over it. I decide to continue playing, even managing a small strained laugh at what is probably the iconic bad beat. Few hands later the laughter stops:

hand 7: No words; http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436800

few other ripping good beats from major donks and all said and done im -$101

Poker can go get fucked for a while. While $100 is only 5 buy ins today felt like so much more. Overall i finished 8 buyins from peak and thats enough to warrant a decent hiatus away from poker. From 22k hands of NL20 im now -$50 which is absolute fucking vomit worthy.

today


Overall NL20


Edit: Obv a very long ranty post etc. Anyway going to set some rules out for myself.
1. no more than 7 tables
2. 3 buy in stop loss per session
3. Make a a new database on pt3. I'll continue to import in hem but maybe a having a new graph to look at instead of my current heart rate monitor/seismograph will help me maintain a fresh attitude.