Big changes!

Big changes since last post. I decided enough was enough with the NL50 grind and threw in the towel. Mentally i think i was just too drained from running bad and this was affecting my play. I ended up somewhere in the vicinity 23 buy ins below ev. Lots of people say that you should ignore ev because its meaningless in the long run, but for me, in the last few months over a 105k hand sample it was just too powerful a reminder of how shit i've been running and eventually broke the camels back.

I sent my staker back his money and his wasn't too fussed because he made some decent coin over the entirety of the stake. This left me with 33k fpp's and some grand plans: I played a step 3 sng but unfortunately busted in 6th. Played a bunch of 210 fpp satellites, cashed in a few, sold the $T for real cash and withdrew it. Bought about $190 worth of the may "instant cash bonuses" and me and a mate are playing the sunday million this week. Following this i will go in the porsche tournament which is 2k fpp's and which should set me back to almost 0 fpp's.

I've realised that i need something to keep me motivated with poker. Following from this, i was looking at some of my old graphs/ blog posts and realised that my best success came when i gave myself the mission of grinding a decent bankroll out of a small start. I thus deposited $70 on stars and will start at NL10 buyin in for $7 initially. Obviously this is an aggressive strategy but if i drop to $50 i will go back to nl5. I certainly won't be dedicating the hours to poker that i have been recently but hopefully i can get to something like $250 by the end of this month.

gogogogogogo!