WAIT! HALT THE OPTIMISM!

I can pretty much say today was the fucking worst day of poker i've had in 2 months. Genuinely exhausted right now from what has been a ridiculously stressful rollercoaster. Thing started really well. I logged on super positive and ready to pwn the weekend donks. Within about 500 hands i was +3 buy ins and loving life. Usually i would stop here and call it a day but in my new analytical approach to poker i decided this was an extremely -ev move, given the woeful standard of players around me. So i battled on. Then the down fall began.

hand 1: http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436752 donk playing 80/20, massive station postflop and often trying to put moves on people. My turn play is obv questionable but it seemed like he usually had something like 89, a fd, or smaller pocket pairs, (44,55,66 etc). Even 99,TT etc are a big part of his range.

So i tried to brush this hand aside and be rational. "He obviously played the hand like a complete knob, but players like him are why this game is profitable etc etc". Anywho, i decided that i would try get back to +50 (as i had dropped to like +38).

And so the fun continued.......

hand 2: Decided to have a brief look at nl50. There's obv no way i can get away from this. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436767

hand 3: yes obv by this stage im tilting. This hand is bad but fml i had no idea what he could have apart from a busted fd, middle pocket pairs or a J. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436774

hand 3: OK THIS IS GOING TO GET UGLY! http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436800

hand 4: smaller one but i love when villains tarp me: http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436803

hand 5: At this point there's a new hole in my plasterboard door. http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436804

hand 6: THE OLD FAVOURITE!

The epic climax. I had actually managed to win a bit of money back. Having gone from +60, to -60 (quickfire 6 buy in swings ftw) within a short amount of time i manage to grind back to being within $1 of even. I tell myself "ok nick lets just get to even and call it a day. It was a shit day but you showed good character and am pretty much even". I start closing tables and, of course, am greeted by some old friends of mine:

http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436662

I literally knew obv what he had when he calls my 5th bet. Time stands still for a moment and i think to myself "This is it. The reward for not tilting and playing solid. What comes around really does go around in poker". I cover my eyes with my hands for the flop. I start to peak through a crack in my fingers for the turn. Thing are looking good. Surely being 95% to win ill make it? No, not this fucking session. Naturally the river;

K

I just sit at my computer fucking drained and so far over it. I decide to continue playing, even managing a small strained laugh at what is probably the iconic bad beat. Few hands later the laughter stops:

hand 7: No words; http://www.pokerhand.org/?4436800

few other ripping good beats from major donks and all said and done im -$101

Poker can go get fucked for a while. While $100 is only 5 buy ins today felt like so much more. Overall i finished 8 buyins from peak and thats enough to warrant a decent hiatus away from poker. From 22k hands of NL20 im now -$50 which is absolute fucking vomit worthy.

today


Overall NL20


Edit: Obv a very long ranty post etc. Anyway going to set some rules out for myself.
1. no more than 7 tables
2. 3 buy in stop loss per session
3. Make a a new database on pt3. I'll continue to import in hem but maybe a having a new graph to look at instead of my current heart rate monitor/seismograph will help me maintain a fresh attitude.

That's better

So after my retardo downswing i took a very critical look at my game and tightened some leaks. Seems to have fixed things at least for the moment.



Have run pretty much exact with ev but i feel as if im making better value bets and better folds. I think it was AE Jones that once said "you make money when you fold" and this seems to be my motto at the moment. Fish at these stakes (unless they are demented bluff monsters) don't generally bet streets with air. If they start doing this its usually time to start mashing the fold button.



<3 rakeback.

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Had an absolutely shit house day today which involved dropping 5 buy ins. First significant downswing for a while. Things really kicked off when i got KK all in against a fucking raging donk with AK on a q5810 rainbow board for him to naturally bink the J on the river. After that it was just a ton of coolers and a bit of tilt from me which may have involved a bit of NL50 dabbling (luckily didn't drop any buy ins here). Overall after rakeback it was closer to a -3.5 buy in day so all is not lost.

My main issue is the fact that im not even beating nl20 at the moment. After a fairly significant sample of 17.5k hands im actually down $26 which is truely pathetic. Luckily for rakeback im net + about $160 but my intention is not to become a souless rakeback grinder. I've watched a few videos and seem to think my main leak at the moment is trying to play too fancy at nl20. At nl10 i was crushing for like 20bb/100 across an 18k sample. The simple solution i believe is to play similar to how i was playing at nl10. This basically involves tightening up a bunch and betting more for value on each street.

I might have a session now and the goal is to just play solid, not jizz tilt any buy ins with shit calls when i know im probably beat and not to try bluff donk stations. Be patient and let the cards come. Hopefully ill be able to atleast get back to even for nl20.

June round up part 2

Well my total figure for June got a nice bump up in the wee hours of the 30th and at the beginning of July 1st. Not so much cash game profit, just a few extra benefits from bonuses etc.

*JUNE*

• Roll started at $497
• +$179.27 from cash games
• +$87.73 from rakeback
• +$22.50 from bonuses
• + 27 (my own deposit so i could withdraw from party)

Total: ~ $813.60 (+$320 for the month)

June round up

Well its been a shithouse last few days. Bad way to finish the month imo. Mr variance has been a prick the past week. My ev is bad but i have been coolered an absolute ton as well. Standard shit i guess.


Anyway in terms of a month wrap up; Played minimal due to exams etc.

• Roll was $497 at the end of May
• +$155 from cash games
• +$93 from rakeback
• +$2.5 from bonuses

total: ~$750



Pretty shit i but can't complain too much given that exams pwned most of my time in june. Looking forward to a good July. July goals are to play 50k hands & be well rolled for nl50.

Goals for this week

Unfortunately wasn't able to play too much this weekend. I had the urge to play today but didn't because i was immensely hung over and i've had bad experiences in the past playing hungover. Anyway figured id make some goals for next week to try motivate me to log more volume.

GOALS for this week

• 10K hands
• $100 in winnings (should probably make more but im happy with this as a start point)

If i can do this my roll should be well on the way to 1k. Looking further into the future i think ill take some shots at nl50 when my roll hits 1.2k

Footy tonight!

Haven't been able to play too much but have been thinking about my options. Im considering just consolidating all my money back onto ipoker and sticking to nl20 there. Party seems ok in terms of standard and software, but no point continually stuffing around with nl10 because im a massive bankroll nit. Anyway the total roll is current ~$785 so its all good. Going to the footy tonight (Australia vs France) then having a massive night in the city. Pretty much the post exam bender i have been waiting for!